Harder Than It Seems Finding my focus. I’ve been conscious for a while that it’s harder to focus and keep focused. I erroneously was putting this down to me being busy. Playing around with stereotypes of ageing. Laying it off on my documented mental health challenges. Yet none of that sits well with me…

Who Is Running The Show? When it comes to dealing with anxiety, who is running the show? I thought of myself as being intelligent and rational. When depression and anxiety showed up, I would vaguely rationalise it by mumbling “brain chemicals” and “past events” to myself — telling myself that life isn’t supposed to be…

The Great Indoors — I have cancelled my Zwift indoor cycling subscription. Goodbye Zwift. After four and a half years and 6,000 indoor miles, no more. Over recent months I had become apathetic at best when it came to watching a digital me spinning digital wheels on a digital road. Every minute in the…

The Best Laid Plans Nanakorobi yaoki. Fall seven times, get up eight. This blog has been dark since July and I’ve learned a lot about this Japanese proverb during that period. It’s been a testing time, physically and mentally. I’m not complaining, I’m very conscious I lead a blessed life. Yet my life has…

Post-COVID business is going to challenge organisations like never before. The pandemic itself was clearly a challenge, a crisis. Many companies didn’t make it; some got by; a few thrived. It affected companies across the globe. Vaccines are helping to bring the virus under control, and we can see a…

Grinding through injury. Yes, I’m working my way through an injury at the moment. After an intense block of training, my knee has started to complain. A visit to the excellent Rebecca Root tells me that I have “upset” a meniscus — the inner medial meniscus, to be exact. …

Dealing With My Depression Living with antidepressants is something I deal with as I seek to better my mental health. I wrote about my struggle with depression here and mental health issues in the business world being taboo. I expected that someone somewhere would use my disclosure against me at some stage. This hasn’t…

First Project 64 Goal My knees creak a little bit. I’ve put some lean muscle on, according to my Withings Body Cardio. I think it’s around the quads and glutes, given the fit of my shorts. I did complete my 6,400 bodyweight squats in May. I’m very pleased. I missed a couple of days…

Why Project 64? It’s my 64th birthday today. When I was young, I remember that was an age when people were winding down — a lot of retirement talk. My parents and their parents and broader family looked old at that age. They looked worn down by life. Their health wasn’t as good…